I turn 29 today and I find myself transforming into a very comfortable space in my life. Years ago when my birthday rolled around, I would find myself over evaluating where I was in my life and if I felt like I’d accomplished everything that I’d set out to do.
I quickly learned that was the fastest way to let myself down. Sometimes I would even find myself feeling really low on my birthdays. My friends would try to celebrate with me, and I was just not into it. I loved celebrating other people, but when it was my turn to celebrate myself, I felt like I didn’t deserve it. Crazy story, last year on my birthday, my friends and family tried to surprise me with a celebration because HD was actually going to propose on my birthday last year! Of course I was being a Debbie-Downer and I couldn’t put myself in the birthday spirit enough to party … so after weeks of me being difficult, they finally cancelled the plans, and I completely messed up HD’s proposal unknowingly (I found this out after he actually proposed on NYE.)
All of this to say, I’ve learned how to celebrate myself with the help of my fiancé. Everyone deserves a chance to step back from what you’ve done and clap at your victories and your losses … and to me, that’s essentially what a birthday is. So today, I’m living my life like it’s golden, appreciating it all.
By the way, have you noticed my new site? I’m no longer Circa88 … you can now find me living under trienadeniese.com … tell me, what do you think?
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